Tedium

Nothing much going on here. It certainly can be hard being a stay-at-home mom at times. For me it's the loneliness that gets to me. Since Elijah doesn't do much talking, I often find my mind wandering. And I starting thinking negative things (jealousy, lonliness, etc.) and this goes downhill quickly, becoming a trap. I've been trying to think about God and listen to Christian music when this happens. Doing this definitely helps! God is my help in these tough times. And it's hard for me too because I know there are so many people that would love to be a stay at home mom, but for some reason cannot be (or are not yet).  And I may start to wonder if I'm not grateful enough for what I have. Yet another downward spiraling train of thought. We are reading a book in a Bible study at church called "Having a Mary Spirit". The last chapter talked about keeping your negative thoughts away and instead having the mind of Christ. Doing this like I mentioned before with praying and listening to music definitely gets my thoughts in the right place. God is good! And it also helps to have great family/friends and awesome church family! I  think it will also help me to be a bit more bold on inviting people over to get to know them better and stop worrying so much about myself.

On another note, time goes by way too fast!! Elijah is crawling all over, getting into everything, and sometimes I wonder how he went from a helpless infant to a near-toddler so quickly! He didn't nap well today so when I gave him his last bottle he fell asleep in my arms. I knew I probably shouldn't let him sleep so close to bedtime, but I did anyways because I know that these days will not last forever (And I hardly ever hold him when he's sleeping anymore). Sometimes I wish he could always stay so cute and little!! But what would be the fun in that :)? I'm excited to see him grow up!